Monday, January 25, 2016

Elusive Bliss

"One is too many, and too many is never enough."
Susi Bocks

The angst falls away as soon as your drink of choice enters your bloodstream. What was once edgy is now smooth. You can take standing in this zone with a renewed sense of confidence. 

Until it begins to fade.

Time for the next drink, and the next, and the next...

Needing to feel at ease, wanting the pain to stop. That first drink takes you there, and the rest give you a false sense that everything will be fine. It's an endless cycle of feeling good and feeling like shit; being in hell is the outcome.

That's the roller coaster named Elusive Bliss. Sometimes you want to get off, and you do. But one bad moment pulls you back on that ride. It's good, if only for a little while. That piece of ease is the promise booze makes. You'll feel way better than where you just were. You hold on to that moment for as long as you can. But it always goes away, and the shit that was your life is back.

Get off that ride... please.

Sunday, January 17, 2016

Emotional Architect

My friend Kristen inspired this...

Let's be consistently excavating, digging deep for insight. Expose the levels and multiple layers. Reveal your psyche, show us the genuine article of who you are.

It is a long process, a life's work. 

We shape who we become by the forces we engage with in our years. They influence, inspire, destroy, uplift, and knock us down; we willingly let them color in our design.

Be ready for the day, should it come, when you realize the facade you've built is not what you are comfortable with. Be prepared to remove rot, change the colors to bright, open the walls up so you can breathe... finally. To one day be the you, the creation of your own design.

That day you will have built who you have always wanted to be. You'll know because living in your skin will come naturally, and be comfortable. Your exterior won't be brittle anymore, it will be strong. 

Because no one, and I really mean no one, will be allowed to decide who you are anymore.